I found your site through a search on "saturn in cancer",
and found that you'd told the story of my my life... Thank you for
writing so tenderly and honestly for us. As you know well, we need
the encouragement! -- Peter A. from Jamul. CA |
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 Thank
you for attending to us turtles in our time of need, we who've been
woefully neglected in much of the literature! For me, Saturn in Cancer
is critical, chartwise (and life-wise). I've never come across such
a hopeful (gentle, encouraging) read; you've led me to perceive my
turtleness with much more forgiveness than I'm wont to. Thanks again!
(Any words for '76 vintage turtles, though?) -- Laitana from Birmingham,
Al |
Very few astrologers have written insightfully -- much less, optimistically
-- about this difficult placement. Through your article, I felt deep
compassion, and a grounded, "owned" knowledge about this
particular emotional history; forgiveness, too, and a permission to
forgive myself for being so (seemingly) fatally flawed. You've allowed
me to recognize the graces that come with these flaws, which is no
small feat ... Thank you, from my heart. My
return is coming up soon, and I'm not quite sure how to handle it...
--NI from Montouk, Canada |
I
cannot believe you actually answered my mail!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am
so happy to have your feedback!! Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!!
The reason I am looking for advice is that I am a very sensitive
person but at the same time want so much peace and harmony in
my relationships that I am capable of compromising a lot. I feel
the need of nurturing myself and my feelings but I hate being
unpleasant or egoist towards people. I understand the notion of
balance but where do I stop? My question is: What's the meaning
of Saturn in Cancer? Should he make me more responsible towards
my feelings (whatever they may be?) or should he push me become
more reasonable and cold towards them? In many books I read that
feelings are an obstacle towards happiness and peace but then
what is the meaning of Cancer? Please take your time... Thank
you -- A from Malasia
I just want to thank you for your saturn return reading that I
just recieved. It was wonderful to read and made so much sense!!!!
It has helped me enormously!! Thankyou again for taking the time
to do this, it is such a wonderful thing to do. Thanks again --
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if I didn't act very soon then I would have totaly lost the opportunity
to shed the necessary bits and bobs. I guess I expect a lot from myself.
It is a great relief to hear that the commitment that I keep on expecting
myself to make doesn't have to happen tommorrow. -- Richard C. in the
UK
I'm experiencing a good deal of the types of feelings expressed on your
site - trying to figure out my path forward and the "hows" of
where I got where I am now: troubled marriage hinging on a few major career
decisions, feeling lost in a lot of ways and trying to sort out what I
want for the future. I'm interested in exploring my chart for tendencies
and pitfalls. I
did read Liz Greene's "Saturn: A New Look at an Old Devil" which
I found quite helpful to better understand Saturn's effects on my particular
planetary relationships. I
noted in your "turtles" article that ... "who I bring with
me on my journey" really spoke to the issues I'm having ... currently.
So, basically, I'm just looking for as much information as possible to
help me wade through a trying time in my life.
I just visited your site and I find it very very interesting. Congratulations
for your work on line and for your interest on helping people via your
knowledge! I am a big fun of astrology. Its a great tool for personal
growth and lately I consult it a lot for personal enlightening. I wonder
if you could help me too. I would like to know how Saturn in Cancer influences
me and precisely how I can take full advantage of this in my life.
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It is hardly possible to emphasize too much the importance of the Saturn Return. The first Saturn Return happens when we are about 29. Let’s take a look.
The planet Saturn, the stern taskmaster, returns to the place it was when you were born twice during a normal lifespan, once at around 29 and once again at 59. It takes Saturn 30 years to make the complete circle of your chart.
When Saturn returns, he has a few questions to ask: Who are you? and Where are you going? These are simple questions but the truth is, at 29 you are beginning to wonder about the answers to these questions yourself. This is because your “real life” is just about the begin!
Yes, it’s true. Up until the age of 29 we are living out our “past lives”. By the way, if you don’t have an experience of having lived before (reincarnation or past lives), then please consider this a metaphor. It works just as well. Don’t let terminology get in the way of the point I’m making because it will help you so much to understand this.
Up until the time of our first Saturn Return, we are living on the fruits or harvests of past lifetimes, so to speak, good or bad … you know the answer to that one yourself. In other words, if your life up to 29 has been wretched, you can now look forward to choices and experiences which may be much more positive because they are of your own making. Karma is the name for this but don’t be afraid of “karma”. It’s like a mathematical equation. Whatever starts ends somewhere and things tend to even themselves out over lifetimes. If on the other hand, your life up to 29 has been easy, good, blessed, etc., then you will now have to begin “earning” these privileges in the current life time. You may have been working off credits that had accumulated in former lifetimes, so to speak.
You may think you know the answer to these questions that Saturn asks but perhaps you don’t. If Saturn asks, “Who are you?” some possible answers are:
1. My father’s son.
2. My family has always been very hard working and interested in business and education.
3. I think I’m pretty much like every other girl/guy my age here in Omaha.
4. Me and my brothers are going to take over my father’s business, so I guess you’d say I’m a rancher from way back.
5. All I saw was people grow old in my hometown and die, so I struck off in the Navy as soon as I could. I don’t really know what I’m doing here other than that.
If Saturn were rating answers on a scale of 1 to 10, answers 1 through 4 would get a “1” and answer #5 would get a “10”.
The first Saturn Return is a time of serious self examination. The Quakers would call it a time to “take stock”. The universe conspires to make this possible through the transit of Saturn. Sometimes outer events will precipitate greater self knowledge or sometimes it is an inner pressure. Either way, most people consider their first Saturn Return to be one of the most difficult times of their life -- and the most rewarding. If you rise to the task at hand during your Saturn Return the entire rest of your life will be easier because you will be on your path and the universe will support you. If you take a wrong turn here, the universe will keep trying to correct you but each time it does, it will be harder for you to respond because you will be more and more entrenched in your way of life and it will be that much more difficult to make a change.
In a way what we are saying is that you’d don’t really know yourself until after the first Saturn Return. For this reason, as an astrologer, I advise people to wait until after they are 30 to marry and have children. We don’t really know ourselves until after 30 but this seems to be a lesson that can only be learned in the fires of life and not by being passed on from mouth to mouth. People under 30 can’t understand and often don’t trust people over 30 precisely because of this threshold which is crossed. There is no way to explain it … only to live it. People over 30 are very different from people under 30. It’s quite true.
SATURN RETURN IN CANCER | SATURN RETURN IN LEO
Better answers during the first Saturn Return would be:
• Everyone in my family is a hairdresser but I’m getting the urge to try something different.
• I spent a few years traveling to get some perspective on things and I decided I belong right back here in Omaha, raising a family just like mom and dad.
In other words, now it’s time to chose your own life, based on some serious soul searching, rather than following in the footsteps or perhaps worse, the expectations of your parents, extended family, individual culture (church, neighborhood, graduating class, religion, etc.) or extended culture (“all the girls I know are …” “all the people in my generation …”)
Of course if you know the answer to the first question, “Who am I?” you already know the answer to the second, “Where am I going?”. You’re just not sure how you’re going to get there.
Sometimes the first Saturn Return requires some very difficult acts of courage. Some things must be left behind or sacrificed in order for you to become a more authentic person. If you think about it, this is the way of nature. When we prune, we are removing good growth in order to encourage better growth. Pruning is a very difficult art. There is wisdom in pruning and the Saturn Return is a pruning season for you.
Many people consider this the most difficult time in their whole life but if you wrestle through to a more authentic self and get yourself on your right path for this lifetime, the universe will support you the entire rest of your life and your second Saturn Return at 59 will be a breeze AND a reward.
On the other hand, if you fail to do this, you will have to face the same situation at 59 when it is extremely difficult to answer any calls or make the necessary changes. Many people die around 60 and I am convinced that this is one of the reasons. Retirement comes at this time, but retirement can be a happy thing. What is depressing and possibly fatal is the realization that you have not really lived YOUR life at all. And now it seems too late to do anything about it. Don’t find yourself in this position at 58! Make rigorous choices at 29 that set your feet on a path that is meaningful to you. If you need help finding your path, that’s something a professional astrologer will be glad to help you with.
Here are some examples of the choices people have made at their first Saturn Return, two “wins” and one “loss”. I have fictionalized names, occupations and geography, but the examples are from real life.
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WIN
with PETER PEACHTREE
Peter Peachtree, a huge strapping boy, was born into a family of well-to-do
Pennsylvania Dutch dairy farmers in Minnesota. Peter was the first son
and it was always understood that he would take over the family business
some day. After all, he would be the fourth generation.
Peter was rebellious during his school years and got sent away to a boarding school. After graduation, he married a girl from his hometown and had two kids. Peter’s wife called all the shots. Peter worked under his father’s strict and overbearing presence from sun up to sun down and never thought anything of it until one day, at around 29, Peter met Lisa. Lisa was a very independent career girl visiting from a nearby metropolis where she was a real estate salesperson. Lisa was a also free thinker and a truth teller. Peter was immediately attracted.
Lisa was not. She thought Peter was a player. After all, he was married. But Peter persisted in his admiration and friendship toward her. Lisa began to point things out to Peter, how unhappy he was, how controlled he was and how hypocritical his situation was. Since this happened to be the truth, Peter’s eyes opened. He realized his wife had married him for money and his parents had always taken advantage of his size and energy around the dairy farm all his life without respecting him as a person. At one point they even tied him to a tree in the afternoons when they couldn’t think of any other way to “control him”. Peter convinced Lisa to wait while he straightened out his life. This was a long, painful and difficult process but eventually Peter obtained a divorce and at least the acceptance if not support of his parents. He and Lisa have married. They have twin girls. Peter runs his own milk delivery service in the area and his parents are finally coming to terms with his new life, which is a more authentic one for him.
As difficult as this was for Peter, he is now living the spiritual, non-materialistic life that is more suited to his true nature. When his second Saturn Return comes around at 59, Peter will be richly rewarded for these difficult choices by knowing that he has chosen the life he was meant to live.
WIN with AMY CLAVIER
It seems like Amy spent the first 29 years of her life studying hard and
being very responsible. An only child, Amy was very close to her single
mother. Both worked hard (Amy had her first job at 14) and their life
had a rather serious tone to it. In her mid 20s, Amy began a Master’s
degree program at the local university and at the same time began living
with a man who was halfway between her age and her mother’s. The
couple moved into a small unit on her mother’s property, 16 acres
in northern Washington state. The relationship between the three began
to seem more like two parents and a child. Amy was getting the father
she never had and Amy’s mother was getting the help on the property
with maintenance and repairs that she had never had. All was well until
Amy got close to her Saturn Return. About this time her boyfriend was
demanding marriage and children. Amy realized this wouldn’t work
for the rest of her life. Also the arrangement was stifling everyone and
most of all herself. She had a lot of internal pressure and finally broke
off her relationship.
It became
difficult to maintain this decision, so Amy began a 6 month research project
in a foreign country in connection with her Master’s degree. There
she met a man who was close to her own age and they became engaged. Amy
realized how much she had grown to dislike the fast pace of America and
how unfulfilling her Master’s program was. They married and the couple
opted to remain abroad where they could live more cheaply. Amy reorganized
her life around some other interests and eventually stayed home to raise
a big family. Her ex boyfriend married shortly after she did and they
remained friends via email. Amy’s mother, although shocked by the
suddenness of her plans, was happy for her daughter. She sold her property,
flew over to visit a couple of times a year, and moved out in new directions
of her own. At Amy’s second Saturn Return, we will expect to see
her looking back with peace of mind, knowing that her decision to be “herself”
at 29, difficult as it was, also gave health and happiness to those she
loved.
LOSE
with LOUIS LAZINKSY
Louis grew up in the Chicago area, the first son of a prominent, wealthy
Roman Catholic doctor. His mother was an aggressive social climber. The
family was Roman Catholic. Louis went to all the “right” schools,
joined all the “right” clubs and succeeded in distinguishing
himself at Yale University as an undergraduate. Between college and medical
school, he took two years off and volunteered for a program in an underdeveloped
country. While there, he fell passionately in love with a fellow volunteer
from Lilian, Alabama named Loxie. They conceived a child and married shortly
before it was born. Louis’ parents were extremely disappointed because
Loxie was not of the same social or religious background but they dealt
with the situation as best they could. To them the important thing was
that the union was blessed by the church and their grandchild would have
a father. The couple and their young son returned to the United States
and Louis began his medical training at Johns Hopkins University. Louis’
father helped the couple to live very comfortably while Louis was in school.
Louis’ mother adored her son and saw a great future for him. Louis
graduated and began his practice in another state.
By this time, Loxie was very unhappy. She didn’t like being a mother. She didn’t think she was “cut out for it”. And she didn’t like Louis’ friends. She thought they were “stuck up” and felt that their wives rejected her because of her lack of education. Loxie began to drink heavily and experimented with drugs. The couple neared 29 and Louis realized he had made a mistake. Both he and his son were suffering as Loxie grew more desperate and depressed. She refused to have more children. She refused help. And she graduated to cocaine. Louis confided in his father that he intended to get a divorce. Louis’ orthodox Roman Catholic father forbade it. If Louis divorced his wife, he would be disinherited. Louis began a life of quiet desperation. He turned more and more to his mother for emotional support as his wife’s condition deteriorated. Loxie died in her late 40s of alcoholism. When Louis was 59, his mother died and he followed her to his grave a year later.
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Here are
a few other examples of changes real people have made at their first Saturn
Return where they won:
• Nora divorced her abusive, overbearing husband who never let her out of the house and went back to college to start a career. She realized that she had never been happy being married and did not marry again, but supported herself as a paralegal and is now working toward a law degree in the evenings.
• Nick was a concert promoter. He drove a big car, dressed flashy, chased women and threw his money around. The concert business dried up for him and at 29 he went into real estate. He married and had two boys. Since he had not saved any money from his promoter days, his lifestyle changed as well.
- Dr. Doolittle,
a vet, told me he "never felt good until he was 30". He had,
believe it or not, undiagnosed spina bifida and a ruptured appendix
which nearly killed him. After a rare operation where bone was removed
from his leg to fill in the missing space in his spinal column, he began
to feel a lot better.
• Evan’s father ran off with another woman when he was 15, leaving him as the “head of the household” with his embittered and overwhelmed mother and 3 younger brothers. Evan’s father made no support payments. In order to provide for the family, Evan began work immediately at an auto parts store in Atlanta and continued there after graduation. When he turned 29, Evan put together enough money to attend a world famous Scuba diving school in San Diego. Evan later worked at the school and used his Scuba diving instructor’s income to take night classes in video production. Soon he opened his own business making movies of weddings and other events.
• Kurt was making trial graphic presentations for litigators in a company based out of Chicago. He operated as an independent consultant and made enough money in 6 months to travel for the other 6. At his Saturn Return, he moved to Hawaii and became a massage practitioner and holistic healer.
- Rory was a super achiever CPA and tax attorney who married the first woman he ever slept with. At his Saturn Return, he began an affair which ended his marriage. The affair ended as well and after that he dated quite a few different women. He was able to make a wiser choice when he remarried 6 years later.
If you are approaching your first Saturn Return, please don’t let the pressure get to you. Do some soul searching and be willing to make some hard choices if you have to because if you do ... you will win for the rest of your life!
If you're between 28 and 30 years old, please also read Important Saturn Return Bulletin -- find your birth date and learn when your Saturn Return is.
Or if you'd rather, you can email me and I will give you this information free of charge to support you on your spiritual path.
Good luck with your Saturn Return and thank you for visiting the site. Come back again soon and browse some more.
LEARN MORE and tell your friends ...
Article 1 The Saturn Return, general information and guidelines
Article 2 In response to the questions I got on the first article, I prepared this one, which gives the specific dates for the group currently experiencing their Saturn Return and graphic examples from the lives of well known people.
Article 3 This article, called "Turtles" tells all to the group with Saturn in Cancer, those born between 8.02.73 and 5.14.76 with a few exceptions, so ... CHECK TABLES.
Old Men are Bastards Robert McNamara is currently experiencing his third Saturn Return in Cancer. Read more about this remarkable man, who is also appearing in theaters around the country in an Erol Morris documentary called Fog in War.
addendum
Tables
These are the table that accompany Articles i, ii and iii for the Saturn
Return.
Why turtles? Because you're learning to take your home with you wherever
you go!
Article 4 Inspiration from the lives of those who have gone before! Learn what others have done who had Saturn in Cancer. I think you will be very impressed and inspired.
Poem for Turtles - a special tribute to the people many of you will become, passed along by my friend Ben Ames.
Article
5
This article discusses Saturn's transit through Cancer
in other periods of time and the lives of some of the famous people who
were born with this placement in order to better understand the times
we are living in . Saturn will be transiting Cancer until July 2005.
WHAT
ABOUT YOUR SECOND SATURN RETURN?
(age 58-60) Learn more about this very exciting
time in later life ... something to look forward to and something to look
back on.
Old
Men are Bastards 
This article discusses Robert McNamara, who is currently experiencing
his third Saturn Return in Cance, and the remarkable contributions he
has made to the 20th century in America. McNamara is currently appearing
in the Erol Morris documentary Fog in War.
Sheltering Heart
I
love the sheltering heart
the sky-wide soul
that makes sure the child in line isn't overlooked,
that sees the turn signal and let's you in,
or notices someone staring into a handful of change and says
"Can I help? It's no trouble."
The
heart that grabs your hand,
looks you straight in the eye and says,
"Look at me. I can see you are hurting.
We have to talk."
Then holds all your convoluted ramblings,
your emotional injuries,
like they're tangled necklaces
of rubies and pearls,
sorts them patiently,
and smilingly places them all around your neck
like you're the princess
with a silly, wet kiss.
The
heart that, in a crowded foyer,
isn't rushing for the door,
but scanning the crowd for tiny people,
pregnant women, the wispy elder with a cane,
and not afraid to say loudly,
"Easy does it, watch out for your neighbor."
The
heart that like a big umbrella,
sits through endless, boring community meetings,
to be able to say,
"Is the playground still budgeted in?
Can we plant some trees near those benches?
Put a light and a phone booth near that bus stop?
A recycle bin near the picnic tables?"
Looking out for everyone.
A
sensitive heart
that asks one last time,
"Are you sure you fed the dog?
Do you need anything from the store?
Would you like the last brownie?"
I
love the sheltering heart,
whose peace increases with giving
which feels everyone's unspoken needs
fine-tuning the instrument of true living.
Ah, do I love the sheltering heart.
Sayyeda
Claire Costello Barry
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Are you between the ages of 28 and 30? Will you have your Saturn Return in 2004, 2005 or 2006? Check the list at the end of this article to see if it applies to you. I have had so much response from my article on Saturn Returns, I'm making this information available so you can check online while you read this article.
skip to dates for First Saturn Return (you're about 30 years old)
find out what your group is like - First Saturn Return (28-30 yrs.)
find out what your group is like - Second Saturn Return (58-60)
The ten articles in the Saturn in Leo series:
-
Who Says I am not Born under the Special Protection of God? Saturn in Leo: Leos feel very special. They feel talented and chosen. Tjis article presents a discussion of the basic issues for Saturn in Leo with examples from the lives of famous people you can learn from. How did Lawrence of Arabia handle Saturn in Leo? Charlie Chaplin? Hitler? How are you going to handle it? By the way, do you know whose quote that is, "Who says I am not born under the special protection of God?"
- You Think Some Great Power Failed You Saturn in Leo in the 10th House: Sample reading for a young man with Saturn in Leo in the 10th house who trained for years for the priesthood only to discover that he was an atheist. Or so he thought. My answer may surprise you.
- Brush up on Your Solar Gods and Heroes This article gives you some inspiration as it explores the symbols associated with the expression of Leo and the Sun in the astrology chart. These are the things to which Saturn n Leo most aspires.
- Your second Saturn Return in Leo Saturn in Leo. Born between 1946-48? Turning 60 soon? So are the countries India, Pakistan, Israel and Palestine. Does this tell you something? Pakistan has been inthe news lately. It is becoming the darling of American foreign policy. Read more. Yours is the generation that came into the world on the defensive, fighting for your life, just like these countries..
- Saturn in Leo in History This article highlights events that occurred when Saturn was in Leo all the way back to 0 CE, many having to do with the Middle East. The countries of Pakistan, India, Palestine and Israel are now experiencing their second Saturn Returns.
- When It's Time to Create a Better God Creativity is a big issues with Saturn in Leo. Although this concept may sound strange, considered symbolically, this is one of the most pressing necessities for those with Saturn in Leo,to keep evolving their concept of deity until they get to something they can honestly worship! . Read about Carlos, the Mexican airline pilot, Alexandra the scientist and others who take this personal journey. These are true life stories with the names changed to protect privacy.
- Genesis -- Don't Leave Home without It Saturn in Leo. Find out what the story of creation can do for you in your personal journey!
- When Blessings Turn to Curses Saturn in Leo. This is a very special area of interest for those with Saturn in Leo ... what do you do when there's too much of a good thing? So many of the Saturn in Leo people I read for have so much talent it almost becomes a burden. Are you one of these?
- Frankenstein, a very special myth for those born with Saturn in Leo. Frankenstein is the creature, the created, who figures out he is ugly and turns on hus Creator. Do you get it? Read a complete discussion for some core Saturn in Leo issues.
- QUOTES AND ICONS - for the Saturn in Leo kids!
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